Friday, January 14, 2011

A Glimpse ...

           Pretty late to start writing. Its probably been days since I've thought of writing, but I just didnt get time. Today is different though :D I'm at Varsha's college - MIT, Pune.
         
          Oh by the way, let me introduce you to Ms. Varsha :D :D :D :D .... she's my roomie at my PG in Kothrud, where I currently live. And she's a young budding lecturer at MIT, Pune. Thats formal stuff :P .. Informally, we're just anything more than roommates who've met like just 3 months back !!! We get along like a house on fire, seriously. She's one of the nicest parts of the very few nice things that happen to me very rarely. And I'm glad I came to that PG alone. Oh, and she's so cute and nice and everything you'd wish for :D. LOL, but I rarely do the obligations of appreciating her so much :( .
           Anyway, I've had real fun. Today is some function at her college, and I was alone at our place, so she thought of tagging me along :D ... I've met so many people. Its nice .. to mingle with people older than you... gives you a good taste of your probable life when you'd be their age. There's Meenakshi - a friend of Varsha's and now mine too :P ... a really cool lecturer and Mr. Mandar who I'd tease with his small roomie when I didn't really know who and how he was. Then there is Ritika Ma'am, Vidya Ma'am, Archana Ma'am, Sunil Sir, Pingale Sir, Magar Sir, Kakde Sir.... I don't really remember if I'm forgetting someone! :( .... But they're really nice people to be around with... I'm glad my roomie got me here :D
           Getting to the point, its really nice to have older people around you. And last night, I and Varsha roamed almost half of my area for Nitin... Oh, forgot to introduce him ... he's a nice friend of mine who had devised a not-so-chic plan to trouble us :P .. anyway, I finally saw Pune streets at 11 in the night ? ! It's certainly not a big thing I know, for most. But, for me, its really ... new ! And then, we had a few incidents I seriously would never want to forget in my entire life and even beyond.
         

Saturday, January 8, 2011

The Beginning !!!

     I don't know why, but there's this weird feeling of writing my days into this "wired diary." It's just that I'm kind of in the last year of my "teenage" life, well, just 5 months to be precise. And then, it surely won't make a difference to me, because I'll still be the same, but I won't be a teenager, legally, anymore... So, just before these days end or before I can forget these days, I think I'll take the pains to write them down... something like - Memorable Memories of The Golden Age temporarily, because I haven't thought of a name, sadly. So, I guess, I'll just write all the possible things I do ... as in things which make me happy. That way, when I'm like 28, I'll know how much I've gained or lost in those 10 years or how talkative I am or just how much I enjoyed my days being alone, independent and a teenager! :P . Don't know if it makes sense though, but I'll still write.

Friday, January 7, 2011

What You Are...

I sort of started off with this -


All that you've given me is hurt and pain,

Are you trying to prove that love is a bane ??

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But, there's just so much that you've given me .... 

Maybe, I probably never appreciated it enough ...

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The tingling rays of the early sunshine on mountains,

The pearly dew drops on the leaves of the greens, 

The starry shimmering look of the water flowing through the hills,

And the mirthful twittering fights of the fledglings,

The charm of the Enchanting Elysian Empyrean Mornings - 

The Grace of the Divine - The Supreme Being; Unmoved, Unseen, Unmatched ...

But, not much for the mornings that I care, neither for the nights,

For, the Lord shalt see  min wordly wyrd,  And for that I have no say !!


All I know is that you mean the world to me, and only you make my day !!

The weird smile on my face, the thudding sound of my heart beats,

The numbness in my hands, the water in my eyes,

Even as the Cooling Effect stupefies me when I gather your face...

I realize, I live for it, for those feelings, every second of my living life ...

The life that you have given me !!

Even as the world believes your mortal, substantial existence,

You still remain the elixir of my life ... the Broth Of Oblivion I always wished for !! 

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~ Mallika 

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Known Unknowns

Those Days are gone, those Feelings over,
Yet why in my mind do they hover...
Like vultures who eat the mortal remains...
Of the immortal soul that bears the pain ?

Why, those obstinate feelings still remain,
As I look at your face in pain,
I know somewhere, that it's all in vain...
But my heart doesn't let it drain !!

I cried and tried, to get over those days,
To get over those infantile dreams I chased,
To forget that you ever existed in my life's story...
And to realize that you're my soul's history!!

But the feelings just don't go, I can't think of you as a friend or foe,
We are, I guess, just Known Unknowns, and we'll forever be so !!

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~ for every second that I spend in thinking what relation we share...

- Mallika

You'll Always Be Mine

You sleep with your specs aside,

tryin' to keep thoughts of your tiff beside...

A brow cringes as you weep,

cos your mind isn't letting it sweep;

the thoughts...

of the early sweet meets, 

and your shy tweets.

of your early fights,

and the patch up "No, you're right's !"

are running in your mind;

But soon, you put it behind...

Maybe wondering,

You never should have thought about him...

Maybe wondering,

Where it went wrong;

You know, your mind's going for a whim...

"Forget him", says your brain, 

but your heart lets it drain.

You recall... 

the last time, you smiled on him when his face was funnily grim,

the last time, he held your hand and it made your hair stand,

the last time, he took you for the scary movie night and you clenched him tight

and the last time, you traced his lips and let him feel your finger tips!

There's a quenching smile, a slow agile...

as you sit up by the window side and look at the retreating tide...

The hurt feelings are being washed away as you begin another day...

and say "You'll always be mine", come what may! 

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I've never been able to forget you 
even though the number of times you've hurt me... are not few! 

You've Left Me...

You've Left Me...

... so lonely,
that even tears don't come to be with me, 
when I wanna cry!

... so sad, 
that I don't even know
why I'm feeling bad!

... so lost,
that even my eyes fail to find a way,
when I wanna reach you!

... so crippled,
that I don't even know 
why I fiddle to get back on the path!

... so frustrated,
that even anger doesn't come my way,
when I wanna forget you!

... so sore,
that I don't even know
my heart's being killed to the core!

Oh! ... You've left me ...

So Incomplete...

that even my own soul,

betrays me...

to be lost in YOU...

forever and ever!! 

- Mallika

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~for the guy who left me ...
so blind, that I can't even see
anyone else beside "he and me" !

I Realize

Who? Where? Why? ... 

Heck ! Its you... stealin my heart... 

but "why"'s what goes unanswered is what I realized last nite!

With swollen eyes and saddened lips, I lay in my nest...

wonderin how to let my sobbing heart rest!

Your eyes make me realize...

I've gone too deep to swim outta them,

So I'm weepin to atleast get into them! 

When you clench me in your arms, I realize...

there's nothing more I need... to feel secure!

Your pursed lips make me realize...

How much I've wanted and waited for you to say, "I LOVE YOU, NUT !"

When I see you, I realize...

I've lost everything that belonged to me and...

that I'm going towards eternal slumber, as every thought...

of you leaving me haunts me in this eerie night!!!!


- Mallika