Known Unknowns

Those Days are gone, those Feelings over,

Yet why in my mind do they hover...

Like vultures who eat the mortal remains...

Of the immortal soul that bears the pain ?

Why, those obstinate feelings still remain,

As I look at your face in pain,

I know somewhere, that it's all in vain...

But my heart doesn't let it drain !!

I cried and tried, to get over those days,

To get over those infantile dreams I chased,

To forget that you ever existed in my life's story...

And to realize that you're my soul's history!!

But the feelings just don't go, I can't think of you as a friend or foe,

We are, I guess, just Known Unknowns, and we'll forever be so !!

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~ for every second that I spend in thinking what relation we share...

- Mallika

You'll Always Be Mine

You sleep with your specs aside,

tryin' to keep thoughts of your tiff beside...

A brow cringes as you weep,

cos your mind isn't letting it sweep;

the thoughts...

of the early sweet meets, 

and your shy tweets.

of your early fights,

and the patch up "No, you're right's !"

are running in your mind;

But soon, you put it behind...

Maybe wondering,

You never should have thought about him...

Maybe wondering,

Where it went wrong;

You know, your mind's going for a whim...

"Forget him", says your brain, 

but your heart lets it drain.

You recall... 

the last time, you smiled on him when his face was funnily grim,

the last time, he held your hand and it made your hair stand,

the last time, he took you for the scary movie night and you clenched him tight

and the last time, you traced his lips and let him feel your finger tips!

There's a quenching smile, a slow agile...

as you sit up by the window side and look at the retreating tide...

The hurt feelings are being washed away as you begin another day...

and say "You'll always be mine", come what may! 

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I've never been able to forget you 
even though the number of times you've hurt me... are not few! 

You've Left Me...

You've Left Me...

... so lonely,
that even tears don't come to be with me, 
when I wanna cry!

... so sad, 
that I don't even know
why I'm feeling bad!

... so lost,
that even my eyes fail to find a way,
when I wanna reach you!

... so crippled,
that I don't even know 
why I fiddle to get back on the path!

... so frustrated,
that even anger doesn't come my way,
when I wanna forget you!

... so sore,
that I don't even know
my heart's being killed to the core!

Oh! ... You've left me ...

So Incomplete...

that even my own soul,

betrays me...

to be lost in YOU...

forever and ever!! 

- Mallika

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~for the guy who left me ...
so blind, that I can't even see
anyone else beside "he and me" !

I Realize

Who? Where? Why? ... 

Heck ! Its you... stealin my heart... 

but "why"'s what goes unanswered is what I realized last nite!

With swollen eyes and saddened lips, I lay in my nest...

wonderin how to let my sobbing heart rest!

Your eyes make me realize...

I've gone too deep to swim outta them,

So I'm weepin to atleast get into them! 

When you clench me in your arms, I realize...

there's nothing more I need... to feel secure!

Your pursed lips make me realize...

How much I've wanted and waited for you to say, "I LOVE YOU, NUT !"

When I see you, I realize...

I've lost everything that belonged to me and...

that I'm going towards eternal slumber, as every thought...

of you leaving me haunts me in this eerie night!!!!


- Mallika